I called Mom before I could talk myself out of it.
She answered quickly, sounding as though she'd been waiting for me.
"Savannah, sweetheart—"
"Did you invite Chloe to my Christmas gathering?"
A pause.
"Yes, of course."
"When?"
"After you and I spoke about the arrangements."
"And what did she tell you?"
Mom's breathing changed. I could hear the television in the background at my parents' house, its cheerful Christmas music at odds with the silence between us.
"She said you were expecting business associates," Mom finally replied. "She thought you wanted a more formal evening."
"I told you she could come."
"I know that now."
"No, Mom. You knew it then. I specifically asked you to tell her."
She didn't answer.
I walked into the kitchen and rested my hand on the counter. The stone was cool beneath my palm.
"Did Chloe tell you that I didn't want her there?"
Mom hesitated long enough to answer the question without speaking.
"She said you had some important people coming from out of town," she admitted. "She thought she might feel uncomfortable."
"Did you ask me?"
"No."
"Why not?"
"We thought you had everything arranged. We didn't want to interfere."
I nearly laughed at that. My parents had interfered with my decisions for most of my childhood, yet when a simple phone call could have prevented this misunderstanding, they had decided not to interfere.
"Mom, I wanted you and Dad here. I wanted Chloe here. I prepared the guest rooms because I thought you might stay overnight."
Her voice became fragile. "We didn't realize it meant that much to you."
I looked toward the staircase.
"That's the problem. You never seem to realize how much anything means to me until after you've chosen someone else."
"That's not fair."
"Isn't it?"
She made a small, distressed sound.
I knew that sound. It was the beginning of the familiar cycle: Mom would become upset, I would feel guilty, and somehow the conversation would end with me reassuring her that everything was fine.
I didn't do it this time.
Instead, I asked, "Did Chloe tell you I was traveling?"
"Yes."
"And you believed her?"
"We had no reason to think she was lying."
"You had my phone number."
Another silence.
In the background, Dad said something I couldn't make out. Mom covered the receiver, but not before I heard him ask whether she had told me about the money.
My entire body went still.
"What money?"
Mom returned to the call. "Your father and I have been dealing with some things involving Chloe."
"What things?"
"It's complicated."
"Then explain it."
She sighed. "She has been having financial difficulties."
I almost said that I knew. Chloe had always needed help, although the reasons changed from month to month. Sometimes it was an unexpected bill. Sometimes her car needed repairs. Sometimes she had miscalculated her expenses and needed a little assistance until payday.
My parents had become her safety net long before either of us reached adulthood.
"What does that have to do with Christmas?"
"She said she needed groceries."
"That's all?"
Mom didn't answer immediately.
"Your father and I wanted to make sure she was all right," she said at last.
"Did she ask you for money?"
"She needed help."
"How much?"
"That isn't something I should discuss without her permission."
I leaned back against the counter.
"You're right. It's her business. But I need to understand why you canceled our plans without even asking me whether I was home."
"We thought Chloe was telling us the truth."
"And now?"
Mom began crying softly.
"I don't know what to think."
I could have comforted her. The instinct was almost automatic. I had spent my life trying to soothe the tension in our family, often by accepting blame for things I hadn't done.
Instead, I said, "I need some time."
"Please don't hang up."
"I have to go, Mom."
I ended the call and stood motionless in the kitchen.
Harper came closer but didn't touch me until I turned toward her.
"What happened?"
"Apparently, Chloe told them I didn't want her at Christmas. And Dad mentioned money."
Harper's eyebrows drew together.
"How much money?"
"I don't know."
"Do you think your parents know?"
"I don't think they know the whole story."
She nodded slowly. "Then find out the whole story before you decide what to do."
I spent the next hour trying to concentrate on ordinary tasks. I cleared the dishes, checked a message from my project manager, and reviewed the schedule for the following week. None of it held my attention for long.
Every few minutes, I found myself thinking about Chloe's admission that she had recognized the house in the television advertisement.
She had known where I lived. She had known that the program was airing. She had known I was preparing a Christmas gathering. And she had told our parents a version of events that ensured they wouldn't come.
Why?
Jealousy was an explanation, but it didn't feel complete. Chloe had resented my achievements before, and she could be cruel when she felt overlooked. Yet deliberately misleading our parents about an invitation seemed like an effort to prevent something specific from happening.
I returned to the kitchen, where a white envelope lay beside the fruit bowl.
I recognized it immediately.
Dad had brought it to my house the previous afternoon when he'd briefly stopped by to drop off a small gift. He had left it on the counter while I was answering a work call, promising to explain what it contained later.
I'd assumed it was something ordinary—perhaps a document he'd forgotten to give me.
I picked it up, then set it down again.
I didn't want to open another person's mail or go searching through private papers simply because I was angry. If Dad had something to tell me, he could tell me himself.
My phone buzzed.
A message from Barbara appeared on the screen.
Your mother called me again. She seems terribly confused about what Chloe told her. I hope everything is all right.
I thanked her and put the phone away.
Then I called Chloe a second time.
She answered with an irritated, "What now?"
"I want to understand something. If you didn't want to come to my Christmas gathering, why didn't you just say so?"
"I never said I didn't want to come."
"Then why tell Mom and Dad I wasn't hosting?"
"I didn't say that."
"You told them I was traveling."
"I told them you might be away."
"And you told them I didn't want you there."
She made an impatient noise.
"Look, Savannah, I didn't want another evening where everyone made me feel like I hadn't accomplished anything."
I gripped the edge of the counter.
"Nobody was going to do that."
"You don't know that."
"I invited you because you're my sister."
"Well, I didn't ask you to."
Her words were so blunt that for a moment I couldn't respond.
Then she added, more quietly, "You always think you're doing something wonderful for everyone. You build this huge house, invite people over, and expect everyone to be grateful."
"I expected my family to spend Christmas with me."
"Same difference."
"No, Chloe. It isn't."
She went quiet.
I took a breath and asked the question that had been troubling me since our first call.
"Did you know Mom and Dad were going to stay away?"
"I knew they were helping me."
"Did you tell them not to come?"
"No."
"Did you tell them not to tell me why?"
She hesitated.
"Why are you interrogating me?"
"Because I'm trying to understand why my parents chose not to spend Christmas with me when I had invited them months ago."
"They made their own decision."
"After you told them I wasn't going to be there."
"I didn't force them to do anything."
That much was true. Chloe hadn't forced them. She had simply given them a reason not to question their own decision.
I ended the call before the conversation could dissolve into another argument.
Harper was waiting in the living room.
"Did you get an answer?"
"Not really."
"Then perhaps you should let your father explain whatever he was talking about."
I looked at the envelope again.
It was still exactly where I'd left it, the white paper catching the afternoon light.
I didn't know what was inside. I didn't know how far Chloe's financial problems had gone, or why Dad had sounded so uneasy when he mentioned money.
But I knew one thing: Christmas had exposed a problem that was much older than a missed dinner.
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