I woke before my alarm the next morning.
For a few seconds, I forgot where I was.
Then I saw the unfamiliar curtains, the small lamp beside the bed, and my suitcase standing against the wall.
I was still away from the Morgan house.
I was still pregnant.
And I was still getting divorced.
The facts sat quietly in the room with me.
I got up and showered, then dressed in a pair of black trousers and a cream blouse I had brought from home.
I looked ordinary enough.
That comforted me more than it should have.
For years, people had looked at me and seen Luke Morgan's wife before they saw anything else.
I wanted one morning when I could look in the mirror and see Sophia Bennett without having to explain the rest.
My phone sat on the bedside table.
There were no messages from Luke.
I checked once, then turned the screen facedown.
I wasn't going to spend the morning waiting for him to decide whether my absence mattered.
Maya had arranged to meet me at her office before lunch.
I arrived early and sat in the lobby with my laptop on my knees.
The receptionist offered me coffee.
I accepted, although I only drank two sips.
Maya came out of her office carrying a folder.
"You're early."
"I didn't sleep much."
"That's not the same as being ready to work."
"I know."
She looked at the coffee in my hand.
"Did you eat?"
I shook my head.
She pointed toward the small kitchen near the conference room.
"There's bread and fruit in there. Eat something before we start."
I almost told her I wasn't hungry.
Instead, I followed her.
It was a small thing, but I was beginning to understand how often I used the same words to avoid being cared for that I had used to avoid asking for anything.
We sat across from each other at her conference table.
Maya opened the folder and reviewed the papers I had signed the previous day.
She explained what would happen next, which documents would be served, and which questions could wait until the legal process required answers.
I listened carefully.
There was something steadying about a conversation in which every question had a purpose.
No one was asking me to smile for a photograph.
No one was expecting me to pretend I hadn't noticed something painful.
When Maya finished, she closed the folder.
"Before we discuss anything else, I want you to understand one thing."
I waited.
"Filing for divorce doesn't mean you have to solve every other part of your life today."
I looked down at my hands.
"I know that in theory."
"In theory is where most people keep the things they're afraid to do."
I gave a tired laugh.
"You make everything sound like a courtroom."
"Occupational hazard."
Then her expression softened.
"You've made one decision. Let it stand on its own."
I nodded.
I had spent so much time imagining Luke's reaction that I had barely considered what it meant to have made a choice without him.
That realization felt both freeing and uncomfortable.
Maya asked whether I wanted to discuss the pregnancy again.
I looked toward the window.
Outside, people were crossing the street with takeaway cups and briefcases.
Their mornings seemed to have nothing to do with mine.
"I don't know what I want yet," I said.
"Then that's your answer for now."
"What if waiting makes things harder?"
"Waiting can have consequences. So can rushing. You need medical advice about your options and your own space to consider them."
I appreciated that she didn't tell me what a good wife would do.
She didn't tell me what a brave woman would do, either.
She treated me like an adult who had to live with her own decisions.
That mattered.
"I want to speak with Elena again," I said.
"Your husband's sister?"
"Yes."
"About the pregnancy?"
"About the medical side of it. And about what happens next."
Maya considered that.
"Keep the conversation focused on your care. Don't let family pressure turn it into something else."
"I'll try."
"No. You can do that."
Her confidence made me uncomfortable.
I wasn't used to someone speaking as though my boundaries were real things rather than requests other people could ignore.
After the meeting, I went to my studio.
The office smelled faintly of paper, wood samples, and the citrus cleaner our assistant used on the conference table.
A set of fabric swatches had been left beside my computer.
There was a client email waiting for me about a renovation project, along with a message from a contractor who needed approval on a delivery.
I answered both.
Then I opened the design file I had been working on before everything began to change.
The room on the screen had pale walls, dark oak floors, and a long window that let afternoon light fall across a low sofa.
I moved the sofa a few inches to the left.
Then I moved it back.
The problem was simple.
The room needed a clear path between the entrance and the windows.
I could see that immediately.
It struck me that I had spent years recognizing when a room needed space while ignoring how little space I had allowed myself.
I leaned back from the screen.
For once, I didn't turn the thought into a reason to criticize myself.
I had done what I knew how to do at the time.
That didn't mean I had to keep doing it.
Around noon, my phone rang.
Elena's name appeared on the screen.
I stared at it for a moment before answering.
"Hello?"
"Sophia, it's Elena."
"I know."
There was a brief silence.
"I wanted to check whether you're all right."
The question was simple.
It still caught me off guard.
"I'm managing."
"Have you been able to speak with your attorney?"
"Yes."
"Good."
I heard the faint sound of a door closing on her end.
She seemed to be somewhere private, but I didn't ask where.
"I need to be careful about what I discuss over the phone," she said.
"I understand."
"I can talk with you about arranging appropriate medical care. I can't make decisions for you, and I can't let my relationship with Luke interfere with your treatment."
"I wouldn't ask you to."
"I know. I just want that to be clear."
Her voice was composed, but I could hear the strain beneath it.
I wondered whether Luke had called her.
I wondered whether Isabella had.
I wondered how long Elena could keep those worlds apart.
I didn't ask any of those questions.
Instead, I said, "Thank you for calling."
"You're welcome."
She paused.
"If you want to arrange another appointment, contact the office through the usual channels. That way everything is handled properly."
"All right."
"And Sophia?"
"Yes?"
"You don't have to explain your personal decisions to me."
I closed my eyes.
It was the first time since leaving the house that someone connected to Luke had said something that didn't feel like a demand.
"I appreciate that," I said.
After we ended the call, I sat quietly for a minute.
I didn't feel better exactly.
I felt less alone in the specific way that mattered.
The decision about my pregnancy still belonged to me.
The divorce still had to move forward.
And Luke could still react in ways I couldn't predict.
But for the first time, I didn't feel that every answer had to arrive before I was allowed to take the next step.
I returned to the design file.
This time, I left the sofa where it belonged.
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